Quarantine Diaries #4: Toxic Love = Toxic Goals (With A Vibec Playlist)

If sad songs make us emotionally explode towards heartbreak, chiller songs makes us vibe with Love’s toxicity. From Kehlani to Jhene Aiko, I could LIVE in their albums. These artists have a way of confronting toxic love with such calm that you want to rest in it; you want to wallow and pillow on all the time’s a fool played you and, eventually, you out-witted their games. Such a feeling is prevalent as pandemic continues, and the future runs on an ambiguous frequency.  

I don’t believe things will go back to normal, but I do believe a new, better normal can come. Songs like the ones above feel important to me because A) they are all new or rising artists and B) the push and pull of our faithfulness to others, beyond ourselves, is what draws the line between toxicity and loyalty. That line can be BLURRY AF! Especially, because when someone gives you a kind word or tells you what you want to hear, it is hard not to WANT to believe they are good or have the best intentions. I want to believe that COVID-19 doesn’t exist, a resurgence is impossible, and outdoor, frozen margaritas with my girls is NOT a public health issue. Can’t a girl get happily drunk without going viral? Well, for now, ….. no. 

There was a hilarious, but Tragic Twitter trend: My Plans VS 2020. I’ll give you an example of mine. 

My Plans:

2020: 

As this trend shows, for now, our ambitions have to wait even longer or, possibly, change. Both ideas are terrifying until your strong enough to find them liberating. How do you do that? By realizing that, perhaps, how we want our goals is as important as what goals we want. Do we want happiness or our dream? Do we want love or that specific man? Do we want peace or pity? Yikes! Like I said, figuring out the differences can be BLURRY AF! But, at least, you got this playlist above. HA!