The Daddy Recovery Sessions: EP1- The Ending Is The Beginning

All my life humor and music have been coping mechanisms. It is why I started Diandra Reviews It All, and now I start my own journey as a singer and writer with MY STORY in the forefront. For me, a song and joke were the equivalent to a bulletproof vest and a dagger against my dad’s abuse. They are what kept me alive, which is why I struggled to make them what gave me a living. Then, the very thing that helped me accept his rejection would become the very thing that, for awhile, people would reject from me.

Covering artists for so long, and what I for as forever, has shown me the road to the top is filled with a lot of rocks. Honestly, sometimes I think the only difference between an artist that ¨makes¨ it versus not is that they either had an incredibly strong mind or completely lost it.In some ways, that is why I feared my dream: From birth, my dad made it a point to viciously and gleefully break my mind by breaking my heart.  His verbal, emotional, mental, and financial abuse were arsenals that he programmed to launch in me, even when he was gone. He did not have to appear often to make his darkness lingering, but now I just do not want it anymore. 

I want to cover my growth as an artist and as human being, which is one in the same, by posting these diaries with playlists, videos, and even my own music to just start the process of showing me. I cannot be hidden anymore because that is how my dad liked me. I cannot be mean to me anymore because that is how my dad trained me. Moreover, I cannot live anymore not trying to do what I want for myself because he did not want me. Thus, The Ending Is The Beginning because in realizing and hearing from the lions mouth he did not love me, I started very journey to love myself and unpack all the choices I committed that stopped me for so long from being it.